hey punks,
so i thought i would be honest about where i am.
ok so to get started i should share how i grew up,i grew up in a legalistic christain home
where listening to jesus freak by dc talk was wild music.growing up there was more of a fear of
if you did not agree 100% exactly what my parents usaully my mom believed you were wrong
there is no gray. now that i have grown up i kinda explored for myself what is wrong in right in the sight on the lord.i know there are things that would not please the lord. i have somewhat drifted prob. father then i should have from the lord. i believe i just need a good church that will fed me and smack me up side the head in love when i need correction problem is this area is extremely dry and full of dull religion i feel like i am lost and don't know where to turn.
i do want to know god and have a quality relationship with god whole heartedly i just struggle with not feeling him for a while, i have been told what god is like what god is and never had room to find out for myself discover god's character for myself. maybe i am just nuts.
i guess i just have to spend more time reading his word and praying and trying my best to obey his commands. i just get so discouraged at times. judge me if you want i just am a human that is confusssed and want to feel the presence of god again.
